This sounds completely and utterly ridiculous in my own head, but sounds even worse as I write it down. I am really quite jealous of anyone who is pregnant at the moment. There I said it. I don’t where it comes from, the thought of being pregnant and looking after a needy little baby as well as a toddler, frankly scares me to death. But I don’t know, my heart kind of aches for another addition to our family and a sibling to my little boy.
The other day I had a conversation with a work colleague who was telling me about how she keeps a stash of girly toys at hand for whenever her little granddaughters visit. Prams and pushchairs, dollys and handbags are a regular sight in her household when the little ones come over to play. Then she said something that triggered something inside me “Well next time it could be a little girl for you”…… of course I laughed it off and said something about liking my sleep too much. But the reality is, I would love for that to be true!
We know a couple who announced that they were pregnant a month or so ago and I am guessing that they should be going for their 20 week scan soon. I am praying that it isn’t a little girl, its terribly selfish of me. But I just know that it will bring all these feelings to the surface again and I don’t want to act on them. Not yet anyway.
I am scared about going on maternity pay. I am scared about the pain of childbirth. I am scared about how I will cope with two children on very little sleep. I am scared that I will not cope with my return to work and that I could be pushed out of my job. But I long for another child.
Mother Nature you really are a bitch.
Does anyone else feel the same way?
Ta ta all xxx
Mummy 123 
Firstly I don’t mean to rub it in but I already have one of each.. I’m only saying this as I feel even worse than you in the jealously front as I long so much for another baby 2 of my friends have recently had babies and another 3 are due this summer. I feel awful for the way I feel when they talk bout the scans and exciting nursery shopping pram shopping etc… I should be happy for them !!! And don’t get me wrong I am happy for them I just wish it was me aswell. But like yourself I don’t think I could do 3 under 5. I would literally have zero hours sleep. I would probably never have time to shower or even brush my teeth lol PMSL.!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣 but honestly I feel your pain! X
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you 😊Yes I guess I feel the same way. I am genuinely happy for other people who are expecting, but wish it could be me too! 😕
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh! I feel exactly the same way and slightly jealous of those who are pregnant at the moment as I really want another. But unfortunately we need to save up first before we can try for another. So I completely understand! Money is a huge factor for us and also I think I can’t handle it! Stay strong, the time will come for both of us soon before we know it ❤😊❤
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yes, we will know when the time is right. It’s just unfortunate that your body clock plays with your emotions 😘🤗
LikeLiked by 1 person
Exactly how I felt before having my 2nd. Yes I’m skint, yes it’s bloody hard work (mainly the older one) and yes I have sacrificed my career (I do still work 3 days a week but progression is totally off the agenda!) and I’ve gained wrinkles but it’s 100% worth it! Feel really blessed with my two though so that’s my services to the human race complete.xx
LikeLiked by 2 people
Aww love your comments! I am slowly coming round to the idea…. maybe something to think about for 2018! It’s nice to hear that you feel it’s totally worth it xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
I have 2 boys and my partner longs for a girl. It’s hard to see others but I love having 2 boys their bond is unreal xx 😘 although it would be nice to see some pink knickers on my line too other than smelly boys Clothes 😂 xxx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Aww 2 boys must be nice together. I think the girl thing is more for us, if my son could tell me he would probably prefer a brother to muck around with and play cars lol
LikeLiked by 1 person
Aww well good luck 😉 xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Aww…. I hear ya! I felt the same way before we decided to go for baby #2, I promise. It seemed all of my friends were having their second, and I wanted that, too. I wonder if it’s a bit of Fear Of Missing Out, too.
About not feeling ready … well, I think we’re never really ready for that next child until it actually arrives! It always takes some getting used to. I think if we waited both times until we felt ready, we might just be getting pregnant now!!!
But best to you for getting through this – it’s tough feelings to sort out, I know…
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yes it’s a tough one. I will work it out one way or another. The main worry is my job and my concern for being pushed out. I earn more than my husband and we would really miss the wage.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yikes, that is tough… I know a few friends here who are in the same boat. Job security is primo! I don’t know how you feel about it (and every body is different, physically), but there isn’t a huge rush to have a second. I mean, a few years’ difference is okay! If it means making sure you’re ready and your job is secure, then a little wait is worth it. 🙂 Plus having two young kids is tough! Sometimes I wish my oldest was older…..
LikeLike
Hi there! I am writing a piece similar to this and would love to tag your post in, is that okay? This is such a fantastic piece and relate to it alot! Thank you xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi, yes that would be totally ok. Thank you very much for your lovely comments. It’s always good to know that there is someone out there who feels the same way xx
LikeLike
Thank you so much! Xx
LikeLiked by 1 person